booboorama

i wish i could tell you that you’re my world..but we know better than that..and i don’t intend to tell you what you are NOT to me..

You ARE my lifeline to sanity.. ive been stuffing my feelings in a Pandora’s box.. now it’s overflowing and ready to explode..the contents, long supressed and unacknowledged truths, ready to blow my world out of proportion.. ive been desperately wishing i could make time move in reverse just so i could edit some scenes in our life..so i could spare a lot of us the trouble and aches.. i keep sinking into the black hole of this tearing truth..but you’ve always been there to pull me up.. You’re an ever flowing fountain of comfort, unconditional love and strength i can always draw upon..

There are times when i want to hide inside a dark closet.. hide there til i rot.. the thought of continuously hurting you gnaws at me.. am i staying because i dont love you enough, thus i dont care about your feelings?? or am i loving you too much thats why im staying?? oh crap!!! here goes the baffling questions again…

much as i wanna promise never to leave…. argh!! i cant finish that sentence..

Its not like i dont feel the slightest remorse for not giving my heart completely to you.. i do..yet…. uhm… sorry im never good with explaining things…much more about this,., but i dare not say the cliche of “waking up with the wrong man blah blah..”

For you are far more than i deserve….